“The two girls sitting next to me were discussing Vocaloid Master tomorrow. “I gotta buy Liar’s World!” “Whazzat?” “It’s Scop-san’s new album! It’s got Domino Toppling on it!” “Oh yeah! I know Scop-san!” That was all in my head, I’m actually at home.”—Scop (via vgperson)
my dash is filled with stuff about Stan and Kyle not being friends anymore. What about Stan's parents divorce? What about Kenny's disappearance? What about Shelly? Grampa being pretty much dead? What about Stan living in a new house?
I'm so invested in South Park, so in love with it, so anxious about it, that when people say they cried during the new ep, that other people will cry, I DO start crying - even though I haven't seen it and know nothing of it.
I have to write about it. I can’t just hold it in. If I do… I don’t know what’s going to happen.
Few of you know this, but I came to be a South Park fan only two years ago. I came upon it because I was looking for something new and fresh to watch, and I figured I could give this show a try. I remember having seen some of Fishsticks on TV one night I now believe was its premiere, and I saw Elementary School Musical as well. Both I thought were hilarious (the scenes I saw, at least), and so they encouraged me to give the show a try.
I was hooked instantly. Not only because of the fact that I could watch all the episodes I wanted at my leisure on SPS, but because the show had its own charm. They boys were cute and adorable, and even though they seemed to get into really fucked up situations, they were funny fucked up situations. As I watched more and more episodes, jumping around seasons, I grew to really love Cartman and Kyle and particular, thus leading me to ship them, but that’s a discussion for another day.
Now, I haven’t been a part of the fandom for that long. Nor am I Stan’s biggest fan. Still, I really, really like him because he’s a smart, sensible, relatable character who’s a good leader and even more, a good friend. His and Kyle’s friendship never really got to me that much, and I only recently got myself to watch Follow That Egg! and Guitar Queer-o. I missed Super Best Friends because it became banned, as you all know, after the 200/201 special. So I never really cared much about their friendship. I’ve always been against Style, so I’m guilty about kind of being against the friendship in a way, being a huge Kyman fan…
But this episode was too much. This episode got me. Those last five minutes… That last montage of sorts… It got me. At first, it left me shocked. It was a surreal feeling, like I was in a different world, a dream world of sorts where I didn’t really believe it was happening. I just watched and took it in, not really thinking. But the second time I watched it, just an hour later…
It left me dead inside.
The reality hit me like a ton of bricks.
The entire Marsh family.
Away from South Park.
Moving on, from everything.
I don’t even
I don’t even know what to say anymore. There’s this odd feeling inside of my stomach, this empty feeling…
The fact that I’ve only just gotten into SP to have it ending so soon…
I know I don’t feel half of the pain that a lot of fans feel. But it’s still affecting me deeply. I never wanted to come to the reality, to the realization that this show might end at the end of season 15, but now I have.
It doesn’t mean I don’t have some kind of hope left, though. I have faith that Stan will be back. I have a feeling that he’ll make some kind of epic return, that he’ll have to, to save his friends from some kind of crazy shit that’s happening in the town. He just has to. The show isn’t the same without him.
The only real bright side for me with this episode was, of course, the interaction between Kyle and Cartman at the end. The fact that they smiled at each other… I never wanted to say this before, but I had the strongest feeling that this would happen if Stan somehow left. As much as a lot of people hate it, and as much as Cartman and Kyle hate each other, it was a plausible next step, given CBAA that we got two weeks ago. And as much as I would love for those two to be best friends, to maybe even replace the best friendship between Stan and Kyle, I know that it never truly can. It’s just not the same. It’s not the same without Stan. He’s the leader, the level-headed one of the group. I mean, what’s going to happen to the boys now that he’s gone?
The fall run is going to be a long wait. But when it comes, I’m going to do what I usually do when a new episode comes along: sit back, have an open mind, and just see what happens. And hope that maybe, just maybe, the four boys will be a group once again.
In the meantime…
We’ll miss you, Stan.
All of my thoughts, my whole heart, everything it’s right here. Thank you very much for posting this. You’ve put all of my feelings into words. I watched this episode like half an hour ago, and I’m so shocked, so full of emotion that I can barely think straight. Really, I’m glad I’ve found this.